It can be difficult to find good resources on the subject.
Much of what is online is anecdotal and often badly misinformed.
“Few people understand [that] depression sucks the life out of you,” says C. “Desires, self-esteem, motivation, self-worth—any of those qualities that keep you going in life—disappear.” Since her 2002 bipolar diagnosis, she has gone only 18 consecutive months without depression. The guilt she feels at withdrawing from her child only intensifies her depression.
“You look at the functional outcomes, such as the ability to work, family life, being an active participant in society—this is largely driven by depressive, rather than manic, symptoms,” notes Roger S.
But those who have the illness, or love someone who does, know it is depression that most disrupts and devastates lives—and dominates the course of the illness. of Halifax, Nova Scotia, is sad, she sometimes avoids bike riding with her seven-year-old daughter.
From a distance, I'd seen how much energy it took Nyla to keep her episodes under control: weekly doctor's visits, blood tests, complicated regimens of medications.
And yet for all their problems, my bipolar buddies had always kept things interesting.
"I hope it doesn't scare you off."Panicked thoughts raced through my mind. This was the odd humor Sara and I had already established, but I wasn't entirely joking.
I'd had several close bipolar friends, and had once been in a long-term relationship with a bipolar woman, Nyla, whom I still consider the smartest person I'd ever met.